Who am I

If you break into my brain you will find a brainy heart with soul,

A spirit flying too high, in her own castle and jail.

You will find a billion thoughts in my mind to explore.

Some are the feelings that can’t be expressed,

Little is the pain I have and the liveliness that can make anyone smile anytime.

There will be tears all collected in the bucket of my heart but can never be poured and expressed.

You will find insecurities and emotions untold.

You will my manipulation and the lost innocence,

You will see my obsessions as well as my ambitions.

There will be fear of losing things and joy of getting the best in life.

There will the paths of my passion as well moments of depression.

There will also be the stories of my battle and my journey of recovery.

You will find I am black and white, dark and light, beautiful yet naïve.

There will be secrets and fantasies of desire,

You will see a romantic full of love, yet heart sinned with betrayal.

You will find the imprints of lovers hiding the scars of crushed sheets.

There will be confusion and a bit of desperation.

There will be acceptance, there will be denial,

There will be faith and hope as well as crumbled belief.

You will find me wrapped in the practicality hiding my immature desires.

You will find a whole new world and also a ruined empire.