inside

While sitting at the corner of my heart

I lock all illicit thoughts and worries outside.

There inside I find my friend silence and the guiding angle; my peace of mind

But still the restlessness of my soul lingers around my side.

This corner is my escape from the insecurities,

Which try to kill the optimism of my heart and mind

This is a place where I can reside and hide;

Because the trouble of my mind scares me all the time.

At times it leaves me out of word,

No reason, no sense just an oblique space to stare day and night.

Sometimes I think why so much anxiousness always prevails within our mind;

Or is it just me conceiving this idea with stubbornness of my life.

Why can I not just leave things aside

And fly like a free bird with just freshness of air in my life.

With a desire of calmness like a water

I try to flow with the pace of time;

Just thinking that all this complication is a fiction of my mind

I say at every moment that all is fine,

Trying to console myself that all will be alright

But the result of this is nothing but more queasiness

Though a minute of delusive harmony is achieved as a consolation prize.

The reason and logic for this is what I search,

Sometimes it’s the unacceptability that hurts,

Or it is the unexpressed emotions which cry inside

They lead to a wild fire which ceases little bit symphony left inside

But then too, I flow in this rhythm;

Thinking that somehow all of this will extinguish,

There will be an end to this anguish.

One day there will be just the stars and moonlight

And silence that will prevail.

There will be the next day with a beautiful sunrise,

Which will evaporate the dew drops from the corners;

 Which make me lock myself deep inside.

 There will be a drizzle to sweep all this away

And just mild breeze will blow,

Proclaiming that now the end is here, and now it’s time to rejoice

And celebrate the freshness of life.

Now the thickness can be unwrapped,

To let softness glow and beam

It’s time to come out of the hibernation,

 Forget the vexations.

And just swim in the ocean of relaxation and peaceful dreams.